Esa sensación perfecta

“Congratulation Jaan…” I whispered softly and kissed him lightly on the tip of his nose.

“Thanks sweetheart… the best part was telling you about it…” He whispered back. He knows I love it when he whispers. I looked up in his eyes and pulled him a bit closer. As close as I could. Enough for me to close my eyes and yet know he’s there because I can feel his body against mine, and his breath on my neck.

“Somebody’s going to be a famous rock star…”

“Hmmm, true…” He said, looking right at me, “he’ll need a groupie, interested?” he teased.

“I’d like that… only your groupie…” I said and closed my eyes as our lips met. He took my hands in his and rested them against the wall as mine hit the light switch off. A pure co-incident. That too a beautiful one… he pushed his lips harder or mine and suddenly backed away, without a sign or hint… he pushed away slightly. I opened my eyes at the touch of his finger on my lips. “I held your hands and felt those lips, sexy and sensual, too much for my fingertips…” he whispered. “I wrote that for you…it’s exactly how I feel when I touch your lips…”

I smiled and looked away. “Thank you jaan, but I’m really not that good…” I replied after a few moments.

“Yes you are…”

“I have to leave soon…” I said and smiled slightly. Conner tightened his grip around my waste and looked right in my eyes.

“No you don’t…”

“I really do…” I repeated, not being able to look away.

“Rose…”

“Yea…” I whispered back.

“Rose….” He repeated, as his right hand moved up my back and onto my neck. He slowly took the strain of hair touching my cheeks and tucked it behind my ear as he held me tighter from his left hand. I could feel his fingers across my neck as I closed my eyes.

“You can leave…” He whispered coming closer and loosening his grip. Aww… as if I could… I leaned forward and kissed him. He knew me too well… I love the feel of his fingers on my neck… on my skin… his grip on my waste… It’s amazing how subtle he is…

“Don’t you have to leave soon?” He asked as he unbuttoned the 2^nd last button…

“Me? No… why would you say something so crazy? How random Conner…” I said and laughed. I just wanted to stay here in his arms. I didn’t even notice the unbuttoned buttons till they were halfway undone already… didn’t I say, subtle… and I loved it.

“Good. Then your all mine tonight!” He said, sounding like a little kid possessing over his favorite car. I kissed the tip of his nose.

“I’m always all yours…” I assured, even though we both knew that… Conner looked down at my top and smiled.

“This top has a history… every time you wear it I just cant ever control myself. Even though its full sleeves and everything, you just look so beautiful in it…” he said, “So, seeing your wearing it today, its only fair if we don’t break the pattern…”

“Mmm I don’t know about that…” I teased. You have to wake up early.

“Do you want to leave?”

“What if I do?” I asked, with my typical I love teasing you smile.

“Well, you can leave, if you want to go… you can leave anytime… now… in 10 minutes… this moment….” I felt his left hand move up my waste as he slipped off a strap from my shoulder and unhooked my bra with the other hand. “Anytime…” I let myself lose as i felt his lips. He kissed me deeper so I wouldnt get a chance to say something this time, or try and leave .. I… he’s too amazing to leave right now… I just want to spend tonight with him… I wont be able to sleep if I leave like this anyway… not tonight… I’d rather spend these hours kissing and hugging him then be back in my apartment… and I for one cannot resist Conner. Which of course, no girl can… but it’s only right if I don’t hold my self back me being his girlfriend… other wise there wouldn’t be much difference between other girls and me!! I’m the lucky Rose. Lucky to be with this amazing guy. He’s so good… you know that feeling you look for everywhere… when you see romantic comedy’s or TV Shows and see a kiss or a Romantic scene and that feeling… you wish you could have it too, the one 2 people in love share… I have it, right here with me… so why would any girl want to give it away… it’s so hard to find a guy who holds you so delicately, knows all your weaknesses without you having to tell him, a guy who can make you forget where you are and what’s going on around you just by the touch of his lips on your. A guy who gives you goose bumps and butterflies just by his touch on your skin… someone who will stand up for you yet respect your independence… a guy that finds you beautiful not just hot… someone who’s eyes you can look into and realize how beautiful life is, how much love and respect he’s got for you… his eye’s say it all… no words necessary, no poems no quotations… just his eyes… and that’s the moment you’ve been waiting for all your life… it’s the moment when you just know he’s the one… he’s forever and he’s everything you want for the rest of your life… and that’s Conner for me… I love him… and I hope this will last forever…

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I quietly unlocked the door and entered the hall, trying my best to not make a sound. It’s 6am… I just woke up, carried my shoes and purse and came back… I didn’t even get time to change into my clothes… I guess I’ll just return Conner’s shirt sometime today… I kind of like being in his Shirt. I can still smell him… I don’t know if his smell is coming from me or the shirt… Aww… either way, I like it. I wish I could have stayed there longer, I think we slept at about 4:00 am and now its 6:00… 2 hours…

Suddenly Maria’s door swung open and she came out. She looked at me strangely and then looked up at the clock. “Could have told me you won’t be coming back tonight… I was waiting because you said you’d be back in awhile.” She said and yawned. She was pissed off, I could just tell. “You have an early lecture this morning…” She reminded me. I knew that!

“Sorry… I completely forgot to tell you…” I apologized and sat on the couch. Ugh, my head hurts. Maybe I should sleep a bit and miss the 1^st lecture.

“Rose… you need to pay attention on your studies…” Maria said, walking into the kitchen. Oh no, please, no lectures right now… it’s 6 in the morning!

“Just generally… how many times in this week have you two… you know…”

“What? Why? Maria… since when are you into –”

“Just answer!”

“Umm… I don’t know… 7 I guess, since last Monday…” I shrugged.

“That’s 7 in 7 days!” Maria snapped.

“Yeah well… what’s your point?” I asked confused. What’s wrong with 2 people being in love? I don’t get it.

“Rose your not studying… and I just think you should lay off a bit…”

“Oh please! Just because you can go like 100 years liking Andre and not even tell him doesn’t mean we all must be like you!” I said and walked to my room, then slammed my door shut. I sooo didn’t need this 1^st thing in the morning! Sure, I was a bit rude just then but what do you expect? She really shouldn’t have started at me just then!

I tried to look around for my Pj’s but couldn’t find them. Ugh, might as well change into what I’ll be wearing for the lecture… only have a few hours left. My door slowly opened as I saw Maria stand behind it, with 2 cups of Tea. She handed one over to me and sat down on my bed.

“I’m sorry… I shouldn’t have…” she said and smiled apologetically. I personally was just happy to have tea in my hand!

“Mmm…” I shook my head slowly and sipped from the cup. Of course I’m not just going to let it slip like that!

“Rose! I’m sorry… come on…” She said, hitting her empty hand on the bed. “Tell me… how was it?”

“What?” I asked, shocked. Maria of all people wanted to know how my time with Conner was? But she doesn’t even like how we’re always lovey dovey, or at least that’s what she calls it!

“Go on… tell me… I deserve it, I was just a pain to you!” She said and laughed. Ha ha. So this is like her punishment then, her having to hear about Conner and me…

“There’s nothing to say… except… I love him…” I said and paused. “I just feel so on top of the world when I’m with him! He’s so… amazingly good…”

“Good??”

“Well… as in he knows exactly what to say what to do and when to say it… and he just holds me so delicately. Conner is… he’s…”

“The perfect description of sensual?” Maria added.

“I…guess…”

“Well he’s your boyfriend, of course he should know how to turn you on!”

“But a lot of guys can’t do it well… and things just fall in place with him… like you’re in a movie.” I explained. I could see from Maria’s face she’d had enough.

“Grosse. I can almost picture it.”

“Okay stop your imagination right there!!” I said and drank from my cup. “But yeah, basically, it just feels right… everything with him feel’s right… even if we’re just discussing something about the Radio Show or talking about the whether or trying to come up with new idea’s… every little thing he does is magic!” God, I am so corny!

“Nice… you know, I am really happy for you. He’s a nice guy.” She assured me, followed by a long silence. I didn’t mind it, seeing I was tired and enjoying my tea, but I also knew something was on her mind. But what?

“You know… how you said outside that not everyone is like me? The Andre thing…” she said, before I could ask her what was wrong.

“I’m sorry… for saying that…” I quickly apologized, feeling horrible for bringing it up. That was mean. I know how much she likes him… dammit Rose; you’re such a bad friend!

“Nah that’s okay… except… what you said is not true anymore…” She said, almost like she was regretting it.

“What do you mean??” I asked.

“Lets just say that statement isn’t right anymore after he came to drop me off home and you weren’t here…”

“Oh. My. God.” No way! Andre and Maria? Finally?? “What happened? Tell me everything!”

“Not much Rose… we just… yeah you know…” Maria was trying to avoid the topic!! From ME!

“Are you both together now?” I asked, curious

“No… we aren’t sure what will happen… we’re going to talk about it today I guess…”

“Is he good?” I teased.

“Shut up!” Maria picked up my pillow and threw it at me.

“What! I’m not the one kissing him while my best friend/Roommate is out!! you cant avoid the topic. You have to tell me,” I said and threw it back at her.

“I will… I promise, once I’ve talked to him… and anyway, he’s so going to tell you this when you meet him. I thought I’d say it 1^st…” She explained, getting up.

“I see, so Maria, where were you guys at the time?” I asked, laughing.

“Rose! I’m going to kill you!” She said and shut my door. Awe, I am SO happy for her!! It’s about time anyway… 2 year’s they’ve liked each other. I think they should go out now. I’m glad I wasn’t home… or it wouldn’t have happened yesterday either!

As for Andre, oh he’s so dead. I’m going to get each and every detail out of that boy and tease him for the longest time!! Like he hasn’t told me yet. It’s already 6.30am, he should have! Maybe I can talk to him after my class… between the break… yes, that’s what I’m going to do… but right now, I think I’ll take a quick nap. Maria would wake me up anyway.

“Maria, wake me up in awhile please…” I screamed from my room… “Unless of course Andre comes over and you’re busy!!” I heard a loud bang on the other side of the wall from her room. Ha ha. Poor her. But this will be fun… I’ve wanted this for so long… for them to finally be together… except, it would be a bit weird, having my 2 best friends go out with each other… wow.

"Les quatre garçons ..."

I quickly put on a pair of black cargo pants that Maria hadn’t worn for god knows how long! It was right at the bottom of her clothes, along with my light green Cape’ style full sleeves T-Shirt. Conner absolutely loved this T! Why? I’m not so sure… something about it looking hot with black pants? Or maybe the material… it’s a soft somewhat transparent fluro-ish skin tight green… lets just say we’ve, well … it’s a good luck t-shirt ;-) if you know what I mean… if not, then I guess your boyfriend just isn’t as romantic as mine!

“I’m here!” Jake said and popped his head in from the half open window. I ignored him and went on with tying my hair up. Jake opened the window wider and jumped inside.

“You know… we have a door… try that next time.” I said, looking over at the unleashed door.

“Nah, I’ve always wanted to climb into a girls room! I feel much better now.” He replied looking around the room and then grinned.

“Oh really? Yeah, wait till you get down stairs… I’m pretty sure you’ll feel much more better once I tell Conner that,” I said and laughed. “I’m sure he’ll be fine with you climbing into his girlfriends room from the window…”

“Dude, please. The boy is a martial arts kid, pity me will you?” He said fiddling with Maria’s earrings that were on the kitchen table.

“Ha-ha, what ever. Get out!” I grabbed my bag and mobile from the bed and shut the front door, and locked the window.

“Why are you locking the window?” Jake asked, confused.

“In case another wacko comes along and tries to fulfil his strange fantasies in my apartment.” I replied, looking over at him for the 1^st time since he’d come. He was wearing a blue shirt with white splashes on it and black denim jeans. What was the occasion? Down stairs Jan and Andre were both also in shirts and jeans. And Conner, in my favourite red FCUK shirt that I got him sometime last year. Which he’s hardly work 5-6 times. Always on some important occasion… he looked hot… his hair looked nice and he was wearing his muddy blue jeans with the shirts sleeves half rolled up and a white t-shirt underneath the red shirt, which you could barley see.

“Ok spill, what’s the occasion?” I asked, feeling a bit under dressed. In fact, too underdressed.

“Nothing at all, it seriously just happened that we all ended up wearing shirts today. That’s exactly what we were laughing about 2 minutes ago before you came outside… because we knew you’d ask what’s up…” Conner said and held my hand. Hmmm… I guess its possible… I just smiled and hugged him.

“Fine, I believe you…” I said, staring at Andre’s hair. Looked cool. I’m not sure what he’d done to it though. It looked… hmmm… different! One of the reasons being he hadn’t gelled it, or done anything to it today so it just fell on his forehead like a fringe but cooler. They all just looked too dressed for it to be a coincident… but oh well… who knows, maybe it is just one.

I got in the back seat between Jake and Andre. Usually I sit in the front when Conner’s driving, but seeing the 3 guys were there, it’d be un balanced if I made all 3 sit at the back and I sat in the front… and plus, Jan loves sitting there! When I sit at the back, middle’s my spot. Why in the world would you sit on either side? I mean, you’ve got this big seat in front you, how irritating. From the middle I can see the road ahead. I know, how childish or whatever, but its just a habit. I picked up the file from under me on the seat. The red one with all the songs… it had some new lyrics. Nice ones. But you really can’t tell much till the time they sing it, as you don’t know how the tune goes. Such as once there were these lyrics I really didn’t like much, but when they started singing, I loved it. Just the slow tune it took and the way the entire song just swayed in time, it was absolutely perfect. Then, there are times when they just scream good lyrics out and I hate it. So, no judging it till I’ve heard them sing it… “Interesting,” I whispered, going through them all for the 2^nd time. I know these guys so well that I can just tell which ones probably came up with what lyrics… there were 2 songs in here that seemed familiar.

“Hey, Isn’t this the song I wrote with yo Andre when Conner had gone home for those 2 weeks and we wrote the shittiest music and then finally came up with this song??” it was a song about a couple from heaven. As in angels. And the way the girl was and how the guy changes ways and it was quiet sweet… “Yeah, we figured a really cool tune for it, which you’ll probably hear today.” Jake said, looking over at André. The next one was Conner’s… I could tell… obviously they probably had a say in it too but I’m pretty sure it was his words… because no body else’s words give me shivers down my neck…

I held your hands and felt those lips, sexy and sensual, too much for my fingertips…

How awesome is that? As if that doesn’t just make you want to pause and just… think about it… Conner’s got this awesome ability, a talent, to make any girl so weak in her knees just by his one look… his voice… his words… not just me, but every girl… I guess in a way that’s a bad thing – for me. A million girls like him because he’s just so irresistible, and you can’t expect him to not talk to all of them… but it’s also a good thing. It means my Jaan will be a good rock star and he’ll be famous as and everyone will love him… that is what I want, him to make his passion into his life. It’s so amazing the way he does it. No matter what sort of mood you’re in, just… having him there changes it all… and I am SO glad to be the only girl he means it too J

I pointed at that one line and looked at Jake. He smiled back, “Yeah, that’s right. It’s Conner’s’… as always!”

“Which one is that?” Conner asked from the front, looking back at me in the review mirror. I felt like you do when you have chemistry with a guy but you’re not with him and he always looks back at you in the review mirror when he’s driving and your eyes meet… Aww, he is the guy I’ve got chemistry with! And the guy I have a crush on, and my fling and my boyfriend, my friend and … my love… my life…

“The pretty girl one… the entire paragraph.” Andre replied. They all knew about it!

We pulled into the parking lot of Checkers. One of the hottest venues in town. What were we doing here? I thought they wanted to go for practise? Conner parked the car between a Merceries and a Ferrari. Yes, hot cars in the car park of a hot venue! Our Toyota Corolla looked kind of cute and purely innocent in front of the big rich cars.

“Why here?” I finally asked looking around at them.

“We’ve got to see this guy… the manager. I don’t know he wanted to know something about the guitars we use or our equipment or something strange, his son’s into music and I guess we were the 1^st option so he asked us to drop by sometime so he could ask us a few questions. Seeing it’s on the way, I thought we’d do it now.” Conner said and turned the car off. “Is that ok sweetheart?” He asked, turning around to look at me.

“Yeah, sure… why don’t you guys go in and I’ll stay here,” I said and smiled. It was a bit sudden, coming here, but I guess 5 minutes wont hurt.

“No, come with us inside… I don’t want you to sit out here… please,” He said, giving me his for me? Look, and I just wanted to lean forward and kiss him but instead I smiled and said sure. I think I can spare the guys another Conner and Rose show he he.

We walked inside through the massive reception and the small waterfall surrounded with flowers and trees. This pace was full of mirrors. Mirrors on top, at the side’s… red carpet on the floor. We got into the lift and Jan pressed floor 14 of 16 floors. I bet it’d have a nice view… I’ve always wanted to throw a party here. Lucky damn manager!

“How awesome is this place? Even the lift has a mirror on top…” I muttered under my breath. The lift stopped at the 10^th floor as a bunch of punk guys came in, going to the 16^th floor. Then on 13^th floor came 2 girls, in hip hop outfits, they were both wearing brown cargos with baby pink skintight spaghettis. Finally, our floor. 14^th. I almost stopped breathing in there that’s how congested it got! Why couldn’t they have used the 20 other lifts?

Everything was so quiet. The boy’s weren’t even talking… only Andre trying to trip me with his feet every 2 minutes, but that’s really it. He does that the entire time anyway so nothing new. But why the silence? For the 1^st time it was actually awkward… I’d say something, but I’m too busy admiring this place. I really like the idea of green walls. Light green textured walls and white photo frames on it… it looked awesome. I’ve never been on the 14^th floor before. I came here once long time back, but only went up till 6^th floor. A while back I was meant to come here for someone’s party, but something came up so couldn’t make it… Conner walked up to the 2^nd reception in the middle of the hallway. There was a red head standing behind the counter, she had grey eyes. Oh please, she was full on flirting with Conner. They talked like they knew each other – at least the body language. Conner knows everybody. The red head handed him a pair of keys and smiled. He came back with the pair of keys and walked past me to room number 12. 2 and 1, 3… hmm, that’s good.

“I thought you had to see the manager?” I asked.

“Yeah in a second! Just give me a minute… and we’ll go.” Conner said as he tried to unlock the door. It was really dark inside; I couldn’t really see anything… suddenly the light went on. Whoa, this place was big. Quiet big! Probably thrice the size of my apartment!! It was like a hall not a room! The same green wall with white frames and a red carpet, it had mirrors on 2 of the sidewalls, the length of the room and a few couches on the other end, there was a green, black and a yellow one and 3-4 colourful beanbags. Behind that was a door, but I wasn’t sure what that lead to. I turned around to look at Conner, but what was behind him grabbed my attention… it’s… his guitar… and their drums, mikes, the keyboard and a bunch of new equipment!

“What’s… happening…? I asked, slowly looking over at all of them. “Why is all your stuff here?” Conner and Andre had a cheeky smile white Jake grinned, and Jan was leaning on the side mirror, smiling. What was this? Some kind of joke?

“Jake? Is this some joke? Conner, I’m confused…” I was shuffling between all of them, trying to find out why their stuff was here… what the hell?

Suddenly a guy dressed up in an expensive looking suit walked in. he looked in his 40’s, with a really classy attitude. He smiled and walked over to Conner.

“Oh good, you boys are here. I was waiting for you,” He said, rubbing his hands together the way people do when they’re either cold or about to announce something. Who is he?

“Hi John, yeah we got here awhile back… I wanted to show Rose the place once… Rose, that’s John Masaska, he’s the manager.

“Hey,” I said and shook his hand. So that’s the manager. I guess he looked like one too. Seemed rich and classy enough to be the manager of such a posh place for sure. Even though that still doesn’t explain why all their instruments are here? Please don’t tell me their going to let John’s kid experiment on that! Just because he’s rich doesn’t mean they have to do that.

“Oh your Rose! Hello, and welcome to Checkers!” He said enthusiastically and smiled. “I’ve been told you don’t know what’s going on, is that right?” I what?

“Uh…”

“Obviously that’s a No… I don’t know how they bought you here with what lie but, the boys here had told me they want to keep it a secret for the time being… and them bringing you here today obviously means its time.” Why does he talk like something’s being hidden? Now I officially wish I’d never come. This is so strange. Tell me what? Are they selling their instruments to these people? Why would they buy it? I… argh, tell me already! For some reason I have this… feeling… this good feeling deep inside about this entire thing, but the way John is explaining, he makes it sound like someone’s died. Glad we haven’t come to a funeral home. He rubbed his hands together again as my heart skipped a beat. I looked over at Conner once again before John said something. He looked happy. That’s a start.

“Well Rose, I’ve heard these boys play… and their quiet talented I must say. So, hence because I love their work I’ve decided to sign them up… for a contract with us…” Oh-my-god… “For now, It’s a 6 months contract, which in a month or 2 can be changed into a 12 month contract… it’s a gig every Saturday night, $80 each, for every gig, $100 if their on a Sunday and… if we need them sometime in the week, that’s a $120 per person for every gig they do… mean while, this place is theirs for practise any time of the day. 24/7 anytime… along with the equipment and they also get a members 30% discount on other things…” He said and paused, there was a silence. I couldn’t even blink my eye. I just stared at him, wide eyed. “Their 1^st gig is this Friday night, which is a weekday, hence they’ll be getting $120 each… we have a special gig on Friday night and we need a band on the last moment…that too a new one…” this is unbelievable… was I going to wake up sometime soon? $120 dollars each! Checkers! This hall for practise instead of having the rehearsal room of the university or that stupid back stage of the club!

“I…I’m speechless… oh my god…” I whispered, with my hand over my mouth. “I really hope this isn’t… some joke… I don’t know what to say!” I went over and hugged Conner and closed my eyes.

“Jaan! This is SO good!! As if you didn’t tell me… Wow I mean… look at this place!! You’ve done it!” I couldn’t help crying, but it wasn’t because I was sad… they were happy tears… Conner wrapped his arms around me tight.

“I wanted to surprise you… I knew you’d be happy…” he replied, and kissed my forehead. Aww, this is… touchwood!!! This is so good! All those rehearsals and band practises and lyrics weren’t of no use and this passion of theirs just got them into Checkers!

I walked over to Jan and hugged him. How sly, this is why the guys were so quiet the entire time, they knew if they blabbered on too much like they do every day they’d spill it all out! It’s so sweet, of them to surprise me!! God this… I can’t believe its real… it’s so amazing…

“Andre! You idiot, god I’m so happy for you… finally of some use aren’t you….” I said and laughed. And Jake, he won’t have to sit around and trouble me anymore or borrow from his dad all the time. I know he’s relieved, he doesn’t get along with his dad well and now he doesn’t have to always call him up and take his shit… and he knew I was thinking along the same lines as him when I got to him after Andre. He gave me this look, when something’s don’t need to be said because their just understood… that one… he nodded and gave me a hug.

“Thanks,” He whispered. Me? I didn’t do anything… nothing that I shouldn’t have done. Just helped him with his dad every now and then, but he’s my friend and I’ll always be there for him. My 4 little awesome guys. Jake is like a little brother, even though he’s my age or a bit older, he’s always like a small sibling… he looks out for me all the time and I look out for him. Jan and I just share something so awesome that I don’t have with anybody else because he always helps me out when Conner and I have misunderstandings… and even Conner doesn’t know that! Or maybe he does, but its just something that doesn’t need to be mentioned… we both know Jan tries his best, him being Conner’s room mate and the one guy that’s known him for the longest time. Jan and I have talked for nights and nights, but only ever when we’re discussing Conner… when he’s helping me figure out how he is or how I am when I’m with him. He’s my counsellor friend! Andre is my best friend… he was the 1^st friend I made when I came here. Maria and I didn’t know anybody, and he introduced us to all these new people and took us to the footy matches! And… my Jaan… god, he’s not only my best friend but he’s my bestest friend and my life partner… what would I do without him? He’s wanted this for so long… he can finally ditch jobs like BK and other things… he likes his Café job, but he doesn’t have to do the other things… he can easily send money back home and still live comfortably here with this new contract… things will get better for all 4 of them so much… and I’ve never been more happier for them!! Conner’s been singing and writing songs for the longest time… his voice his passion… he deserves this… it’ll give them all a chance to show what their capable of…

“So much for dressing up like this accidentally!!” I said and rolled my eyes. Most of all, I just couldn’t stop thanking John! How sweet is that of him? I mean, he could have just picked some other bands, ones that are also famous… but he saw their talent and decided to give new talent a chance to make their life. His one decision can make or break their life… that is just so nice!

“So really there was no practise today??” I asked looking around as we came back to the car park. I felt so… alive!! And the guys looked so happy and excited… I wanted to hug them again and again! It was adorable!

“Nah, we wanted to show you this place… Conner couldn’t wait anymore!” Andre replied squinting his eyes from the sun. “But we’ll practise tomorrow… seeing we’re preforming on Friday! Which means this week we wont be at Juke Box…” He added.

“You? Hell, no one will be at Juke Box or anywhere else!! We’re all coming to see you guys!” I said confidently. I can’t wait to tell the girls, they will be SO excited!

“That would be good… to have people we know in there…” Jan said with his thinking voice. Lol. Cute, they didn’t even think about it! Offcourse we were all going to be they’re supporting them that night!

“Friday night is my treat, after the show… done?” I asked, getting in the car. Everyone seemed to be okay with it. Why wouldn’t they be, I’m treating! Even though they should be treating seeing they just got the contract but I’m just too happy to not celebrate.

“Why Friday? Let’s go now! You treat today, and it’s our treat on Friday for our 1^st gig!” Jake suggested… hmm, not a bad idea! It was only 9.10pm… we could always go out for a little while.

“Alright, let’s call everyone else as well…” I said. That way we could tell them today!

“Tell the girls, and I’ll let Michael and the other guys know.” Andre said taking his phone out. Awesome, this was good… Aww, I could tell everyone!! I want to be the one to announce it! This way, maybe Riley will feel better being out as well… I hope so!

I dialled Maria’s number, trying my best to act a little less excited. I wasn’t going to tell her yet. Only that there’s a good news… not what it is… that’d be told when she’s there! Oh she’d be so happy… specially seeing she’s liked Andre for the longest time and he’s liked her!

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So much for a Plan ..

2… and 4… plus 3 of the other girl’s… so I have to pick 4 models and find… 2 of my own… hmm… I think our college has some pretty girls I could ask. It’d be a good opportunity for them as well.

“Rosaline, hey!” Michael said, walking out of a Biology Lab with a group of other students.

“Hey, haven’t seen you for awhile…” I said and stopped next to the Biology door, letting people have way to go out. Michael leaned forward and hugged me. It really had been awhile since I’d seen him around… maybe 2 weeks? And we’re in the same College. He lives in the building behind mine! “How are you?”

“Good… been a bit busy… I did drop by last night, at your apartment… but I don’t think you guys were there. I thought I’d say hi…” H added. Hmm, last night? Ah… that’s right, I was at Riley’s 1^st and then we went shopping… and I was at Andre’s, studying till midnight… that’s probably why.

“Last night… aww, I’m sorry…” I said, as we walked towards the library.

“So where’s Conner? Doesn’t he usually walk you to your lectures?” Michael asked, confirming.

“Yeah…” I said and laughed. He made it sound like it was bad. But sometimes Conner and I just get so busy that the only time you get to talk a bit is between lectures! So we walk together… at days, its not even possible to talk in the breaks or frees because there’s so much work or we have them at different times… I like the fact that he’ll walk with me to my lecture or I’ll walk with him to his… or if we’re going the same way we just walk together… its nice… I get that small amount of time to spend with him. And the fact that we just look so amazing together that people have to stop and stare! Hehe… it’s nice… “H usually does…” I finally said. “But today he’s gone for some experiment at the Medical Research Lab…. Something… weird… you know me, I’m not a medicine girl, I’m really not so sure!” I sort of miss him being here today… and it’s only been a few hours! Funny… god! Imagine if he lived in a different city or country! Imagine not walking with him to lectures or not having him live in the building right in front of mine! Nope, don’t imagine it. At all. Because it’s never going to happen!

“Oh right, Med students…” He said sarcastically, playing dumb to make me feel better. If anything, Michael knew everything. He’s a smart ass who always comes in the top 5 students in our university for the maths exams and quizzes.

“Where are you off to?” I asked, laughing off the sarcasm.

“Library… you?”

“Same… I’m sitting there with the girl’s… have to pick out models for my fashion show… JP’s given me a dead line!” I said and rolled my eyes. Even though the dead line was a week back! Hopefully we’ll pick today. We have the Internet there too, for any models we don’t know we can look up!

“Oh, can I help?” How predictable… men… mention anything related to boobs and vaginae’s and female bodies and they’re all over it without a thought.

“Sure… as long as you don’t throw cheap comments then its cool” I teased, “Oh, and no erections and shit there please…”

“Rose!!” He snapped, trying to reach my hand as I quickly walked further into the library where everyone was quiet. “Oh you’re so dead, wait till we’re out of here.” He whispered, walking over to the computers where Maria and Riley were sitting. Hmmm, Nat said she’d try and be here… maybe she had some work. Oh well, the show must go on! With, or without her. Ha, sorry, just trying to feel a bit important here…

* * *

You have 4 New Mails

To: CRC

From: Conner

Subject: Next Meeting

Hey everyone, the next meeting is held tomorrow night, which is a Tuesday, and its going to be over at Rose and Maria’s from 5pm onwards. Please try your best to be there and kindly reply back if you cannot. We seriously need to start discussion about the coming up events. If the 2 seniors from each year are going to be there, not a problem. But I want at least 1 senior there tomorrow from each year so if you cant make it, make sure you’ve talked it out with the other. Cheers.

P.S. Get some snacks, and good ideas.

Conner

To: Conner

From: Rose

Subject: So much for informing …

Hey you, my place? Was I going to be told earlier about this? … I didn’t know it was over at my place. Anyway, please make it a point to tell me next time :p cheers. By the way, what’s happening with the Multi Cultural thing? Get some more info on that by tomorrow and I’ll try and contact the head of St. Peters about the Exhibition.

P.S. Maria wont finish work till 6pm tomorrow so she will only be able to join us after 6.30.

I love you, Rose

From: Andre

To: R Committee

Subject: Urgent

Rose and Conner, please contact me regarding our show this week… we need to decide some things. It is urgent.

There is a meeting on Wednesday for the new shows and new comers, a lot of forms have come in, so anyone in charge or in part of decisions, please make sure your there Wednesday at 6.00 sharp at the Rehearsal Hall.

Andre

From: Riley

To: Rose

Subject: Omg

Rose! I’m in shit! L I don’t know what to do… buzz me when you’re online… please! Love you xo

From: Rose

To: R Committee, Riley

Subject: Only 1 Rose!!

Guys, there’s only one me. As much as I wish I could be at more then once place at once, I cant… I have to see JP Wednesday night, so I’ll be leaving early, by about 7.30pm and Andre, the urgent thing can be taken care of tomorrow night at CRC my place… which by the way PLEASE don’t be early for, I will only get there dot 5.30pm! R committee please bring some decent ideas, any more of Paul’s awful stuff and I’m out. Cheers,

Riley

P.S. Riley, come over in an hour or so if you must, we’ll talk.

Nat is Online

Hey girl! What’s up?

Hey hey, not much just checking my mailz… so much damn stuff! I can’t do all this at once and still get good grades.

Aww poor you… need any help?

From: Jake

To: Rose

Subject: Practise

Hey Rosaline, we have practise tonight!!! Be there by around 8.30 pm, if you need a lift let me know. Cya

From: Rose

To: Jake

Subject: Lost

Practise for what?? And why am I a part of it?

Yeah, I could do with some help… just please make sure these guys do the right thing tomorrow over my place, I’m going to be damn moody and stingy by 5.30pm tomorrow, and I wont have any strength to put up with anyone… and even worse by Wednesday…

Aww, don’t you worry, I’ll make sure everybody behaves and leaves the place spotless. You just relax.

From: Jake

To: Rose

Subject: Music

Band practise idiot, and you so gotta be there! Conner was all excited about you coming… and we need feed back, please please don’t say no! We’re really looking forward to it… so, pick you up at 7.45? Awesome! See you then, thanks a lot you rock! Jake

I don’t know… people are SO irritating me now… its like I’m meant to be at everything all the time… when am I meant to do my work? I DO study here, and studying is the last thing on my list everyday.

Aha… I might have a solution for that!

What?

For studying… and how you could take time out for that… it’s easy! And you can get everything else done too.

By doing what?

A study group!

…

Well, we could have a CRC study group… as in we organize it for the students in one of the lecture rooms where your not allowed to be unless your supervised. We can have like a day of the week where we have study hours from say 12- 6 or maybe 2-8pm and people can come in and study.

But why would they need the CRC to do that? Anyone can go somewhere quiet and study on any day of the week…

Yeah I know, but we could make it so that any help they need from any of their teachers, we can provide that for them too, the teachers and their help… and it could be cool… like with snacks and stuff, and computers for students. It would be quiet and good for studying… and we can get permissions to use the Uni equipments too. What say?

Hmmm I guess so… I could be in charge of that – I’d love to do this… that way I could sit there and finish my work too!

Exactly.

But we need a little more then just those things… something different that students can’t do on their own.

We’ll come up with something… before tomorrow. You think and I’ll think too, and we’ll tell them the idea at the meeting.

All right, awesome… thanks for helping!

Not a problem babe, anytime.

From: Rose

To: Riley

Subject: Sorry.

Hey honey, I’m so sorry… I can’t see you today anymore… I completely forgot I had to go for the guys band practise tonight and gosh, things have been a bit busy lately haven’t they? I’m so tired. What’s wrong? Your mail didn’t say much… how about I drop by your place when I’m back? And we’ll talk then… it might be a bit late though, around 10.30 or 11.00pm… is that all right? Let me know, you take care till then, love you too, Rose.

1 New Mail

From: Ava

To: Rose

Subject: Meeting

Hey Rosaline, It’s Ava… I just thought I’d leave a message asking you when you’re free for meeting? I know we only met yesterday and I just found out about a lot of things and I’m still new to this stuff… so I’m not so sure what to do… but since I’m helping you with the website and the story, please do let me know when your free and we can catch up. Thanks, Ava

So what are you doing for the rest of this week?

I don’t know… not much actually… oh, except offcourse meeting Matt tomorrow afternoon for lunch! J

Oh nice. You guys seem to be hitting it off well already… specially after the coffee yesterday… from what you told me, he so likes you!

Hehehe I think so too! What’s your plan?

From: Riley

To: Rose

Subject: About tonight!

Thanks so much Rose… you’re too sweet… yeah I didn’t explain much in my mail because I didn’t know what to say… I’m sorry… I’d rather talk personally… and tonight is fine with me, anytime is good with me… don’t worry about being late I’ll be up till about 2-3 am anyway…I’m just sorry for putting it at you so suddenly, I know your really busy. See you… thanks again.

Uh, I’m going for the band practise tonight, soon. I don’t know why I have to be there! But arguing with them is like banging your head on the wall – you’ll never win. Then I’m going over to Riley’s… she wants to talk…

Lol, ouch… busy night ha? Poor you… are you free for the week though?

From: Rose

To: Riley

Subject: No problem

Not a problem honey, and why stay up so late? Don’t do that, you gotta be fresh tomorrow… we’ll talk don’t worry, and tell me everything when I’m there, till then take care. Bye!

Well, I’ve got Uni in the day and I’ll have to like leave 10 minutes early to get back for the CRC meeting…can you believe it Conner just told me today with everybody else that its at my house!! Then I have to be at the radio show with Conner and Andre. Wednesday is the radio meeting, and then I have to go see JP. Thursday I’m hoping we would have decided something about the multi cultural event so that I can have a meeting with the CRC head and the principle, I still have to squeeze time in to go to St. Peters to talk to the principle there… and I’m working Thursday night from 6-11, and Friday I have to see JP, this weekend is the before wedding party!! Gosh…Nat, I’m going nuts…

Whoa…

AND I still have to fix a time to meet Ava… I’m going to have to do all this in my breaks… and you know after the meeting tomorrow we’d have more meetings for different events…god knows what I’m going to do.

That’s way too much rose, you need to take a break…why don’t you just tell them you can’t be at every meeting and take charge of everything? Its team work, not Rose does it all.

Mmm… I know… but if I don’t go nothing will be done.

I agree.

From: Rose

To: Ava

Subject: All right

That’s fine with me… I just need sometime I’m sorry I’ve been really busy. I don’t have even a minute to spare at the moment… but I promise I will do something this week itself, and I’ll let you know as soon as I have something figured out. You’ll be the 1^st one to know, thanks for putting in time and effort.

Rose

Anyhow, I gotta go Nat… take care; I’ll see you tomorrow sometime. Think about ideas and get junk! Jakes going to be here in 10, ox

All right sweetie, take care… and don’t stress. Later.

Right now, I was so tired that I could probably go to sleep and not wake up for 20 hours. I really badly need some sleep… that is exactly what I’d planned… I’d thought I would have Riley over for a while she would leave by 9.30, by then Maria would be home and I would go to sleep… and wake up tomorrow for my classes… now instead I have to go to the band practise, STILL no idea why the hell I cant do it another day… come back late, knowing the guys at about 11.30, and then go over to Riley’s, stay there for an hour or 2, which is like 1.30/2 am… and wake up again by 9… or maybe 8, so I have 2 hours to study. Argh. Soo… now, what am I going to wear? Obviously, something owned by Maria.

1 New Sms

I love you… Conner

Aww, as if… I’m so tired and just his one Sms can make me smile… god, the guy doesn’t even need to make an effort to make my day. Not good. Not good at all. Rose, get a hold of yourself! You have to concentrate! You’re tired, and not very happy about having to go to practise today… not happy at all… ow… I love him too…